ok so this is my first journal and i just want to vent out some stuff, dealing with a few "friends" and a good FRIEND of mine...


1...

back a few days ago or a few weeks, cant remember... i got beat up with my friend becca.. this gang out of no where that is controled by two people we use to be friends with (long story) jumped out and started attacking me, becca and our friend andrew... andrew ran after he got free...

i got hurt pretty bad for standing up for becca, shes only 14 and well i dont want her hurt... im 19 so i decided to stand up for her..

i got hurt pretty bad, hospitalized and all that stuff....

becca got hurt bad too... which pisses me off... i hate it when she gets hurt, because there aint flip that i can do about it...


2...

i have 2 brothers that like the same girl i love... but she likes them more no matter how much she says she didnt... im just a big brother to her.... she is my girlfriend right now but i know she wants my brothers... after what happened lastnight (june 2nd) i dont think we are really dating anymore...

that brings us to


3...


ok, my friend becca and i are good friends.. we talk a lot on IM... well she is dating this guy matt, or i think they still are... matt, lizzy (the girl i love) and aparently some other people that i dont really know who... dont think i am real... i mean lizzy told me she loved me.. i believed her.. everyone thinks that becca made me up or something like that? its hard to understand what a heart broken 14 year old girl is saying threw her tears...

i hate to hear that she is upset and what they were saying, which i dont even know all of it.. broke her heart... she hasnt stopped crying since they said something...

im not sure what is completely going on but i hate it.....

i mean come on. the person I LOVE and the person BECCA LOVES got together and broke our hearts... and dont seem to really care...

on top of all that becca is at the hospital watching her nephew, whom she will be raising like a son (because her sister doesnt want the baby) be born... her sister is anemic.. i'm not sure fully what that is all i know is that neolani (her sister) could die at like any moment during child birth...

matt lizzy and i guess some other people broke her heart at the worst moment ever... when she needed them the most...

yeah sounds like i'm venting for her? sorry but it just pisses me off that they did that...

i normally dont like get mad at a bunch but what they did was flippin wrong... they hurt me and becca..

there are 18 "guys" and then becca, jewly, lin, and jen... so 4 gurls.... we made this pack... lin had to move.. a bunch of the "guys" had to leave.. everyone basically abandened me and becca... i have 2 broken legs...

5..

i got in a flippen wreck because of my brothers!! i was driving and they kept playing and i swerved while it was raining and we got hurt... my brother bry landed in a comma.. my dad broke his arm.. i got 2 broken arms... my brother josh came out fine suprisningly.. just a few cuts and bruises..

i couldnt get up to the hospital to be with becca... when she needed someone the most, everyone either left her or BROKE HER HEART AND IM PISSED!!!


yeah this isnt even half of what i got going threw my head.. im mad.. REALLY mad......